April 26, 2007
· Filed under Life, priorities, reflection · Tagged inventory
I’m Taking inventory of where our real priorities lie- there’s a big difference between where they ARE and where they should be. I think I’m maybe the best example of this- I was up until 2am the other day finishing an assignment, and I was banking on have a STRONG cup of coffee in the morning. Long story short, there was no time for coffee- and I was a cranky little brat all morning because of it. I let my daily dose of caffiene, or lack there of, ruin my morning. How insignificant it turned out to be in the long run- but I still managed to let it start my morning off on the wrong foot. I’ve got to get over the little things, and learn to take these little details in stride. However, when I need to get over being a brat, so does the rest of the world. Just yesterday, I got called to the dean of students for not turning a library book in on time. The dean of students at prep is not someone you want to get called to by any means- she either expels you, gives you JUG, or just repremands you for your petty crime. When I think of going to see the dean of students- it’s usually for no weak offense. The typicial offenders at that office are usually the heavy partiers, the cheaters and the more serious offenders. NOT people who keep a library book past it’s due date. maybe I’m making a big deal out of nothing, but I think it was a little over the top.
I’m sorry to complain so much- I’m on a rant again, I know. I think I’ve just been very restless lately, I cant’ really say why, I just wish i could stop stressing.
There just has to be more than all of these things that seem so insignificant and lame. What’s stressing me out?- stuff that doesn’t matter!- My dance teacher is not so happy with me, and I’m stressing over our show coming up. She expects dance to be my life and the only thing that I care about. There was a time when this was the case in my life and whenever I had a free afteroon it would be spent in the studio working because I loved what I did and couldn’t get enough of it. Now, there is so much more to love. Over time and as you grow the things that once fulilled you no longer fill the void, you must broaden your horizons and move on. It is fact, that these days there are bigger fish to fry than dance and the studio. I must readjust my stressors according to my priorities. Hopefully then I can relax a bit, and actually do what I want to.
March 21, 2007
· Filed under Life, Religion, freedom, priorities, silly stuff, turning points, youth · Tagged rita's, scranton, spring, spring break
Finally! Spring is here!- In Scranton the first day of Spring is Free Rita’s Day!, and free Dunkin Doughnuts day! Goodbye snow- goodbye heavy workload at school- and hello sunshine and prelude to Summer! To top it off- there are only 14 days until Spring Break!
On a more reflective note, Spring also marks the beginning of the end- the end of high school that is. Finally, what we thought would be a neverending four years has come to a close! NO more semi’s, basketball games, plays, or spirit weeks! no more fridday nights at south side, or Sunday mornings at the Glider… Oh, how the little charms of high school shall be missed.
Springtime is known for new starts and getting rid of the old grey ways of before. For me- it’s the loss of childhood, home, and things as they are now. though I’ll prabably always retain some amount of youth, after this summer, childhood is forever gone. So it is with a heavy heart that I leave high school, but also lots of hope and exciment for what is to come in the future. With growing up you don’t necessarily loose any sense of fun or adventure- those are certainly a few things I plan on holding on to, probably for as long as I live. Just like Frank Sinatra said, I plan on staying “young at heart” for as long as I’m allowed.
How does one sucessfully transition from the highly protected bubble of high school, to the real, responsible, intimidating, world of an adult? I don’t think there’s one clearcut answer to this question, everyone grows into adulthood at their own rate, and in their own way. I just wish I knew mine. There are days that at 18, you feel like you own the world and you can take on any task presented to you. However- there are times that you feel like a guppie swimming among whales.
Though there is much I’m leaving behind, I know deep down it will all be worth it. It’ll hurt at first, and I can abrely imagine leaving my family- that’s going to be hard. There are so many things I’m so excited for!- To be in formation, on the way to being a Sister- will be amazing! ( not easy… but amazing nontheless) To work with kids and be close to Christ and my Sisters- what more could I want?! There is always a price to pay for such happiness, and the hardest step is always the first. So, thank God I’ve got the help of MHC on my side for August!
