Good Morning!
Here i am, sitting in trig not paying attention and writing in my blog rather than paying attention. I’m a second semester senior, we’ve all developed some sort of allergy to doing school work. Although, I must say, despite that fact that we’re all so unwilling to work, we still getting just as much work as before. The quarter ends in 2 weeks, and I’m screwed- let’s just leave it at that.
So my good friend Brittany sent me a very fitting email yesterday, I needed to hear what it said just as I recieved it, funny how timing and Providence works right? Here’s the little quote:
One day a postulant ran into her room. On the verge of tears, she exclaimed: “Mother, I have to go home – today!”
Mother Mazzarello looked up in surprise. “Why, my dear, what’s wrong?”
Gradually the story came in bits between sobs, a combination of homesickness, and childish worry. Mother explained it all to her.
“But I still want to go home!” the girl protested.
“Well, now, there is no sense in dashing off before you even know your own mind. Why don’t you stay with us for month on vacation? Then we’ll pray together, and if you want to return home after that, I’ll go with you myself. How’s that?”
The girl agreed. She stayed and became a wonderful Salesian sister!
This story is basically the story of my life at this point. I’m nothing mroe than a nervous child. I know what i’m getting myself into but faultering under the stresses of my youth. I lack perfect trust, this will come with time and effort but for now I can only ask for strength in doing the will of God. I’m just a kid on a lot of levels but with the inspiration of the Divine- I can’t fail , right?? Well, I don’t think so- not at this rate anyway!
Currently, I’m working my way through writing my autobiography. Writing my autobiography is a requirement of the application for the order, so I’m def not doing this out of my own choosing. It’s not as terrible as I thought however, you can’t help but be very introspective when writing this. There are so many events in my life that I consider significant but have never really recounted on my own in any sort of depth. I guess one of the purposes of the autobiography is to recount how you developed into the person that you are. This includes vocational turning points, relationships, spiritual life, etc etc. It’s all about self-awareness. I feel so lucky to have had so many positiive influences placed in my life. Without these people I don’t think that I would have developed into the person that I am today. Everything happens for a reason and writing this autobiography has only cemented that in my mind.
Okay so, here it is- my blog, the one thing I avoided because I’m such a terrible journaler.. I owe that to my attention span worthy of a gnat. Oh well, life moves on… So people have been bugging me to get a blog for ages so here it is- my submission to not so terrible peer pressure. I think this may be a good way to release my little emotional outburts ( whether sane or insane) on something other than a person. No one person needs to feel the brunt of my rants– thus is my reason for starting a BLOG!
